Never Dress to Impress
Top: Target (Jilli’s closet)
Cardigan: Target (Jilli’s closet)
Before last year I always used to care how people saw me & one of the things I used to do was dress for others & never for myself. So what changed? I guess in a way I stopped caring so much of what people expected of me. I guess I stopped living for other people and started to live for myself. Last year, I hit rock bottom. I was in a bad place at that time; shattered, broken, I didn’t want to care about anything anymore. At first, it started out as a really really belated New Years Resolution lol. Every morning when I got dressed to go out, I would make an effort in my wardrobe, it was an effort to help me start every day with a new start. New outfit each day = new day, fresh start. Eventually it went into a routine and by the end of it, it started to help me out. By making the effort into dressing up in the morning, it helped my mood throughout the day.
Some days it takes me a little longer to get dressed and others it doesn’t. Sometimes I’d be lucky & wouldn’t have to put that much effort in finding an outfit. I would just look through my closet, put it on, check it out in the mirror and head off to school. And then I’d be getting comments on how cute I looked or how they loved my outfit. No matter how long it takes me, I love playing dress up, mixing it up, layering, creating something new. & don’t get me wrong, I still have some days where I’m really cold and I feel warm & comfortable in a hoodie despite the nice day outside & I would go out in the hoodie, shorts, and flip flops. I still have those days and days where I don’t care what I wear. But the main difference and change from the my past self is that I dress for myself, not to impress but to express.